watching graduation from across the country is filling me with so many emotions which I wasn’t expecting. I can’t believe how quickly time is passing and how many people I simply just will not see anymore. I feel just joy and sadness in my heart. I can’t believe how quickly I’m leaving too. I wish I’d just stay put for a bit but it hurts too much to stay, not when...
Low Self Esteem
current reading list
reading Malcolm X’s biography and really enjoying it at the moment. It’s nice to just read something I like. and not worry about getting through it. though I do have a reading list atm. Orientalism by Edward Said Are You My Mother? by Alison Bechdel The Emperor of All Maladies by Siddhartha Mukherjee Why We Can’t Wait by Martin Luther King Jr. Animal Liberation by Peter...
all stories are really about someone else
When I was 12 years old I remember feeling a throbbing in my chest. A dull ache. Over the course of 12 hours it slowly intensified until I was in pure agony. It is what I imagine a heart attack feels like. I thought I was going to die and wrote emails to friends I didn’t even feel that close to detailing my fear of what was to come. I begged my mom for medicine which she would not give. I...
The First Time You See Someone Naked By Kat George →
Now youâre just sweat and pubes on my sheets and I wish I could freeze you in time so I could get familiar with all your crevices and poke and prod around like youâre my high school science experim… The first time I saw you naked was weird, because for all the time I’d know you, I’d only known you clothed. To me, you’ve been a person that wears clothes; you have never been a person that...
It’s weird, you know. My relationship with tumblr. It was always there when I felt like shit. When my life didn’t go where I expected it to go. No matter what I felt or what I didn’t feel, it’s always there. Sometimes it makes me frustrated or angry or happy or quiet or hungry or sad. Sometimes I wonder what it means and represents and who it means and all sorts of things...
Where does a thought go when it’s forgotten?– Sigmund Freud (via ambling)
And finally I twist my heart round again, so that the bad is on the outside and...– Anne Frank (via losed)
I’d like to raise both of my middle fingers to him and anyone who thinks...– M.I.A. (via esaedders)
I was being kissed a lot lately: I needed the affection, I can tell you. Anybody...– The Buddha of Suburbia- Hanif Kureishi (via hastyexitsarefornuns)
Gitmo is Killing Me →
Samir Naji al Hasan Moqbel, a prisoner at Guantánamo Bay since 2002, told this story, through an Arabic interpreter, to his lawyers at the legal charity Reprieve in an unclassified telephone call. ONE man here weighs just 77 pounds. Another, 98. Last thing I knew, I weighed 132, but that was a month ago. I’ve been on a hunger strike since Feb. 10 and have lost well over 30 pounds. I will not...
What If We Responded to Sexual Assault by Limiting... →
stfuhypocrisy: (Quite possibly the greatest thing you’ll read all day) Calls for Men to Be Blindfolded in Public In response to claims that men are unable to restrain themselves from committing rape if they see women in skimpy clothing, members of law enforcement agencies around the country have called for men to blindfold themselves when they are in places where they might encounter a female...
So I have problems with the theosophical society and certainly don’t know enough about it’s history or any of its practitioners to speak about it with any sort of authority. But I found a quote recently that I liked: “It’s no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” Jiddu Krishnamurti If I don’t like this society, its values,...
You either like me or you don’t. It took me twenty-something years to learn how...– Daniel Franzese (via bleuveins)
Existential Depression in Gifted Individuals →
This article by James Webb discusses existential depression among gifted young people. He examines what it is, how it may manifest in a gifted child, and what a parent can do to help their child through these difficult feelings. He points out that gifted young people are more likely to have this type of depression because of their more highly developed sensitivities. It has been my experience...
Freddie Mercury ‘smuggled Princess Diana into gay bar disguised as a man’ Freddie Mercury disguised the late Princess Diana as a male model and smuggled her into a gay bar, it has been claimed. Princess Diana and Queen frontman Freddie Mercury Photo: Reuters/Rex By AFP 10:10AM BST 31 Mar 2013 Comedian Cleo Rocos, Mercury and fellow comedian Kenny Everett...
It was rape.
It was sexual abuse. It was bad sex. I don’t know if it was rape, but it sure as hell wasn’t okay. It couldn’t have been rape. I couldn’t have been raped. I doubt he realizes what happened or thought about me afterward, because we live in a culture that only tells us that “No means No.” We aren’t told that “I have a boyfriend” means no or “I’m drunk” means no or...
I brought the first Korean American family to television. I have influenced a...– Margaret Cho http://jezebel.com/5992256/in-a-room-full-of-naked-koreans-margaret-chos-body-is-an-unwelcome-sight
Um Trigger warning I suppose?
So I feel all 2 of you who read my blog have noticed I’ve been posting stuff about my psych shit and how I fail at interacting and everything. And I’m in this really great relationship now and am supporting myself in a better way. And am so much better at articulating my needs. And I finally feel like I have enough strength to start actually telling my stories, which has nothing to do...
technicoloredskies: Bukowski by Modest Mouse ...
Spent the day cleaning and organizing my room (with help from Riley) then went over and hung out with Yang. You know I have to admit I am always so surprised by people. And I’ll be honest, I think what I’ll have to say comes from a place of bitterness. About a year ago, someone (multiple someones actually) held me. It was entirely consensual, non-romantic physical affection. And I...
Living with ADHD
There’s nothing fun about being nearly 21 years old and having to ask someone (multiple someones, lezbehonest) for help because you get too overwhelmed by the most basic interactions a human being can have with the world and space. Where the most mundane things can be so stimulating that you need to take a step back and stop your mind because you’re getting too worked up. Where often...
Beef industry →
learn more about your food!
So crushed that Madeline has to give up Alfred. Ugh it kills me. I’ll adopt next semester, but oh I’ll miss Alfred. No other cat waits for me at the door and cuddles with me and purs for my attention and eats baklava and bacon with me when Adrian is off being a person and follows me around like he does. Oh Alf. How I’ll miss you.
Above all, don’t believe your friends when they ask you to be sincere with them....– Albert Camus, The Fall My favorite book at 17.
I need feminism because
I would rather be queer than be a girl.
EVERYONE EVERYWHERE READ THIS! →
UGHHH SO GOOD!
[This will be awful and mushy. Eh, I’m killing myself. ] Hung out with Libby and Yang, then Yang and Adrian, and then just Adrian yesterday. It was a nice day. I am happy that I am friends with Yang and Libby. They are special people and I have fun with them. And Adrian likes Yang and I have been telling each about the other for weeks, so I am super happy about that. Adrian and I are both...
one night stand
possibly the greatest thing ever →